Jesse's · life...

Well hasn't my life taken a change, I'm not sure if its good but I've got my trust in God that he'd get me through it and be leading me all the way. I was thinking about what I want to do next year and I'm thinking of going over to Vanuatu for a year or so to stay just so I can get out of this very busy, poluted world. Plus I've been wanting to live on the wild side and to go where I have no comfort. Rach and I broke up a while ago and I'm starting to think maybe that I've got a commitment problem because I've been in four big relationships over the past two years and it seems to get to a point where we just end up ending it. Well i can say that I'm going to try not to get into a relationship until I work out what God wants me to do that way the girl I meet won't be going off to do other things she'll be doing what I want to do.

Its so scary cause I've got no flipping idea of where I will be in the next few months. My life changes so rapidly and I Change so rapidly! Up and down, in and out, round and round! Phew I getting sick of it alot and need time out quite often,

Anyways Cheers.

Well this is a pic of Rach, it was taken on the morning of my 18th. we had climbed up a tree in a school opposite where i live. we later found out there was 2 possums up there with us and they attacked us so we got out of their tree as quickly as we could. Oh its great being 18 i can now drink and see R rated movies. it made it especially good cause a R rated movie came out 1 day before my birthday one which i was desperate to see called 2:37. it was good. me and karl have got back to our normal selves although he still is acting wierd. me and rach agreed on that :) Love them all and God especially, Thanks

How my life has changed from a few months ago (a simple diagram):

TAFE, work one day a week - Full time work
Relationship with god going nowhere - Searching hard 4 a better relationship
Single, not wanting a girlfriend - Going out with an awesome Chick
Never reading anything - Reading the bible, books and newspapers
No Male figure-head in my life - Karl there to talk to about anything
Sinning and not caring about it - Still sinning but trying not to
Not knowing really what i believe in - Having an understanding of what i believe in

well its been a while!!

last nite i spent the nite in brisbane with me friend karl. it was an awesome time mainly cause i got to spend like 6 hours just talking and doing fun stuff with him. Rach is now my gf and its the strongest relationship i have ever been in and she makes me so happy i just hope i can make her as happy as she makes me. i went shopping in myer and bought some stylish black pinstripe pants and collard shirts. it will be funny cause those new clothes will be with me for a long time, people will come and go and what a story they will hold when their time is up. i've been praying every nite and basically asking God for strenght, understanding and knowledge of him. and oh how i want a better relationship with him but i now know that it does take time and it is always getting better even if it doesn't seem like it straight away.

On tuesday i had the worst nite!! me and karl got together to pray and talk but i had been thinking so much on my problems that it got me really down and i just wanted to die. anyway the nite was a failure but i did decide to get happy and not worry on my problems cause everyone has them and it will do nothing for you so thats what i did and ever since i haven't been thinking on them and life has really picked up for me.

My new life motto is to live like i was born french cause to me thay are so outgoing yet sweet and kind and completely themselves!

well i'm going like i'm on top of the world right now although i've been tired for ages and even though i get sleep i'm still tired i don't know weather it has to do with over sleeping if thats possible??? I've been getting stronger in god and moving towards a better relationship with him.. i just started reading the bible and if i can keep that up i will be a stronger guy and man of the lord Jesus Christ. i just hope i can hear his voice and know what he wants me to do with my life in order to serve him. i guess i better start praying hard cause my life is moving on pritty quick but i will wait for an answer and do what might be right for me in the mean time.. Today i watched city of angels and it was inspiring. opened my ears to hear what the world has to say, i went out and was watching the sunset and could hear the music of it i just stood there looking at it for ages not thinking anything just listening and in awe of the amazing world god has created for us to live in even though its full of sin and coruption. sad isn't it but knowing that there is eternal life after i die gives me relief. love you Jesus and Goodnite

CupCakes:

You are a cupcake! Innocent and sweet more than every one else. Everyone loves someone like you!

I think this is a cool random saying that you could say to a friend i'll use it sometime!! I love random things, but i love inspirational things more. if you havn't seen the movie The Garden State it's pritty inspiring!! i love the part when he looks up at the rain and spins around, it's like he just lets go i love it!!

I'm sad!!!!! one of the guys i was had prayed for a few days ago just passed away, :( he was in a car accident and was throwen from the back seat and was put in crittical condition. It's so sad i wanna cry.. life is so fragile, when i think about all the things that could go wrong it over welms me. so many near misses its obvious that someone is watching over me and protecting me. Thank you God!!!!!

I woke up to look out my widow to see thick fog and only letting the outlines of object to shine through.. its funny cause i got up about 11am and the fog stayed around for ages. its so nice to feel the wind on your face and to take a big breath in and know to face the day with open arms :)

Signing out Jesse

Hey How are you's all going?

I worked today it sucked so much but i guess its money and i need that so i guess it wasn't that bad, For the past 2 nites i've stayed up really late talking to Rachael bout life and stuff, it's been really good. we are so much alike its funny!

I feel really joyful cause I'm so lucky to have friends, they are so inspiring and just someone there to talk to and release whats inside. I ask God for strenght all the time and he gives it to me! The strenght to go to work and to stay positive and to do things even when i have absolutely no strenght myself! He's AMAZING!

I saw this cool thing on this awesome web site that states all these awesome funny quotes.

" I wanna die like my grandma, she died peacefully in her sleep. Not like all the screaming people in her car."

or

" I'm not a vegitarian cause i love animals, I'm a vegitarian because i hate plants!"

Sleep peacefully all me homies

Boy i've been listening to music now for about 4 hours, just the stuff on the radio it is so cool! I love music it sets the hole mood for me so i have to try and listen to music that inspires me or makes me feel happy. cause if i listen to sad music i will get sad, but i guess theres a time for that but its not right now.
Bonvoyage